I tried my best to be authentic in all that I did, and this is what eventually let me to art, self development, psychology, ethics, philosophy, spirituality, and yoga. There is allot of practice, theory, and experience that has got me to this point of gauging truth in my life. To sum it up, I have found that all and all it is not a black and white, right and wrong spectrum, which might seem to lead to more questions than answers. However, the answer is more creative than a simple most appropriate solution, it is more of a balance, do to the changing nature of life within and without, and how they overlap and intermingle.
A little bit about how our mind works is useful to understand this balancing beam between right and wrong is useful I believe. From what I have learned our minds are an incredibly complex system of synapse connections that are wired in such a way that we are making decisions based on previous experience that was thought to be favorable for us at a previous time in order to become efficient. Consciously thinking less over time for similar activities, doing certain things that we do a lot more quickly, so we can accomplish more in a smaller amount of time. The difficulty comes when we desire to make a change in the way that we live for whatever reason like, for some reason there is less money to buy what we are used to like certain foods, or someone important to us has gone away. When unfortunate things happen we normally want to make things OK again. However, the connections in our brains that relied on the circumstances, which came from what was there before the loss, do not want to change because of the comfortable and safe feeling that comes with that wired efficiency. Unfortunately life does not have a preference to what we have found as being good or bad, comfortable or sorrowful. Life simply is in the state of unbiased unfolding. The nature of our minds is to seek out that efficiency and self collected feeling of rightness. So how might it be possible to change these connections in order for our minds to do their job? This has been a riddle that is ever present in my life because, in small ways everything is always changing. To form a sort of alliance with life, balancing between life's nature to change and my mind's nature to have things become efficient and habitual.
Authenticity to what my brain has know, and what is happening around me in life is what brings me to that place of peace and balance. This is a life in process. There is always a point where I feel like I begin and a point where I feel like I will be better off, but this isn't necessarily with the path before me life leads me down. The truth exists in the middle of this process of changing thoughts and behaviors that my brain has wired into a semi permanent process of living life efficiently, and the awareness of what is really happening moment to moment. It is a series of little pushes to something needed for nature of life to be presents within me as it is without.
Right and wrong is a limited way of seeing the fullness of reality, though if they are mixed together in the right proportions for the moment in life that I am in, there might be a moment of clarity and truth that brings with it a sense of ease and contentment, much like like the crispness that comes with the mid part of a day for me when all things are in balance in mind, body, and spirit, allowing me to act without sluggishness, and enjoy my activities uninhibited by doubts.
May the truth of who you are greet you moment to moment, my friend!
A blessing for living life fully in you and all!
-Aaron :-)